i'll hold you tight in my arms and never let go.

2006-10-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

this is joshuathegay.
i have been neglecting my girlfriend by gaming almost every night with mr fatdog and mr supergay.
gaming is evil.
i think i should quit gaming.
and start being a good boyfriend by pampering aud.

HAHA, I WISH.
joshua ang, you should start being a dear.
love, aud.

2006-08-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

hello.
i am joshua,
and i am smelly.

2006-05-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=d40HXJ4yuas
haha. japanese are full of crazy shit.

anw, dad was telling some stories today..
his cab driver friend, was like some crazy kung fu dude.
he was held at knife point and about to be robbed.
den he told the robber..
let me show u sth. den u decide whether u want to rob me anot.
he took out a 50cent coin, and bend it in one hand.
the guy got freaked out, pat the cabbie on his back and walked off.
haha. unbelievable but.. yeah.

i enjoyed my chocolate mint bubbletea and popcorn chicken today. =)

2006-05-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

last sat when clubbin. haha.
tried to enter MOS.. underage. gawd.. how smart was i man.
when simon msg me saying he was celebrating at mos,
i thought he was celebrating at mos burger. hahahaha.

anw, i tried entering twice. rejected the 1st time.
den the 2nd time, i tried enterin with simon's ic. hahaha.
i wore some specs and pulled my hair down.
obviously the 'bouncers' didnt believe that ugly dude in the ic was me.
hahahha. kiddin.
they kept asking me if that was me. then the manager asked,
' you sure this is you? i know its not you!
this is not your nose. you go for plastic surgery ah?
im goin to call the cops.'
haha. after that i gave up.
simon got dragged into it.
cops were almost involved.
let off with a warnin and all of them had to leave for that night.
haha. felt darn bad. sorry simon! kinda spoilt ur evenin.
but we went to the phunk bar aft that though.
haha. yeah

2006-05-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

bloc system sucks man.
especially this past week.
it was really screwed up.
9-9 daily.
only had a 12-3 break.
but had to use that period to do animation fund.
and i didnt have the time for my girl.
it really sucked.

my quality time with her,

skipped meals,
lost of sleep,
cash needlessly spent of cab,
feeling really f.ked up.
oh man it sucks.

i wish u could understand what im goin through.
its not that i dont want to. its not easy.
and i need u to voice out and tell me how u feel.
dont think that i hate it when u complain.
in fact, i like it cos i noe there is someone who cares for me.
and is constantly reminding me stuff and concern for me.
but i noe its really unfair to u.
if u want some time out,
i understand.

ph-uck bloc

2006-05-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

it seems so shaky now.
a cadle upon the rocks.
everything is uncertain now.
it wouldnt be the same anymore.
the things u told me bout how u see our r/s.
i have to agree with u.
but i wanna let u noe, i still love u.

2006-04-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

went to sch on a sat mornin. haha. like. wth man.
it was some tea appreciation buffet for those who were involved in de orientation camp
kinda stupid man. shudnt have woken up so early..

anw, watched 8 below with matthew and jiayi.
not bad la. its like a show that u would see on national geographic.
like how dogs survive on their on in de south pole. haha.

aft de show, we saw a freak of women's nature.
u noe usually when u see a fat girl, u wud joke abt whether shes pregnant or just fat.
but what we saw today, bloody shit. u really wanna ask that question.
she is normal build. but she has this FAT BUBBLY JIGGLY WHIITE tummy.
and she SQUEEZES her jelly-like waist into this small jeans.
can u imagine. its like.
tying rubber band around a packet of tofu.
her fats were like droooping all around her waist. sides and back
it was damn funny man!
haha. shit. man.
den she keeps bending down to take stuff exposing her ass crack.
like she hasnt had enough of showing off. haha.
oh man. it was really a funny sight.
den i tried to take pictures of her tummy secretly while pretending to msg beside her.
whahaha.
next time when ure mum is cookin tofu,
take a rubber band and tied around de centre. try it! lol.

den we were at 5th story lookin down.
talking bout spitting down on people's food while they were eatin.
and how ur phlem shud be green and think den u spit into de guy's food.
haha. den this guy eating fruits, poked a papaya with a stick.
was abt to put his papaya into his mouth when it dropped into his kopi.
hahaha. den it spilled all over him
hahahha. damn funny la. hahaha.
loser sia. lol. hope it doesnt happen to me.

anw. my baby is down with rashes.
hope she recovers soon.
i'lll take u to de doc on monday if it still doesnt go away k?
take care sweets. =)

2006-04-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

audrey yee ah.
im feeling very sick leh.
can i not blog properly today.
still aching.. sore throat.. screwed up nose.
gonna have fever soon.
wanna join dragonboat.
trials this comin sun and mon
but still aching. how?

isaac says eating egg white and drinkin loads of water will help.
hmm. shall try.
eh.. isit cooked egg white or raw. haha.

sigh. such a weakling.
but im gonna change that in 2 mths man.
lol.

sch is starting. that rocks man.
i'll get to see chio bu every mornin.
yooohoooo!
no la. see audrey nia.
haha.

ciaoz

2006-04-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

my boyfriend is ohsolazy to blog.
and here i am doing it for him.
i changed his layout again and i haev no idea why some of the posts are in BOLD.
i cant seem to figure out how to change it.
i shall just leave it. :D
ohwells.

UPDATES OF JOSHUA ANG.
josh is doing fine,
except that he is considering joining a cca,
and that he's thinking of toning his muscles.
soccer today and i missed meeting him cos he hitched a lift from his dad.
actually, i dont know what josh wants to post about.
OH! KIENLEONG!

kienleong went back recently,
and josh and i bought a gift for him.
well, we thought he might have needed it.
and while he was back,
the both of us helped him did a whole load of shopping for his girl, shadow.
and he had to wrap it nicely so that his parents wouldnt see the gifts.
but at the airport,
the customs immigration had to check all his parcels cos he was going to the states.
so one by one the presents were to be opened.
he bought TWELVE gifts,
the officer opened one after another.
and he saw yet another one.
josh's gift.
(by the way, josh wrapped like, close to TWENTY layers)
so apparently the officer PATIENTLY unwrapped one after the other.
and when he finally reached the last wrapper,
one can actually imagine the frustration on anyone's face.
hahahaha. 'unwrap so freaking long only two boxes of cheeky condom, knn.'

aud: if i was that officer, i would have glared so freaking hard at the passenger. lols.

2006-03-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

i love yu joshua ang.

i make another one for you another day kays?

2006-03-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

I HATE JOSHUA ANG.
I AM GOING TO CRY.
HE'S AN IDIOT.
asshole.
DICK.

2006-03-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

my boyfriend is too lazy to reply.
and he's too lazy to talk to me though he's just sitting next to me.
every question is answered by a 'huh', or 'no'
like wth.
i think he lost his brain at bugis street or something.
my boyfriend is becoming stupid.
SHIT.

baby, yu're reading everything that i'm typing.
so are yu gonna open ur mouth and talk to me soon?
i am bored.

me: laughs

asshole.
yu're still not talking.
not even making a SOUND.
nehneh.
i dont care already.
okay. i DIDNT SEE HIM LAUGH.
nor hear.
he just edited the post.
bleah.
BYE.

this is the post of joshua ang.

2006-03-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

THIS BLOG LIVES.
its alive aud..
anw, some one is in malaysia! oh man.
it was so sudden. so.. so.. SUDDEN.
her dad just told her family they were goin to malaysia.
just like that.. like. out of nowhere. just like that.
haha.
but it sucks man. someone whom u love so much
goin overseas so sudden.
sigh. take care sweets..
but its gonna be just a day or two rite? see u soon!
=)

2006-02-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

long time no blogggg....
gettin lazy to blog nowadays.
anw, its wk 14 of sch. for these 2 wks,
im gonna be rushin like crap.
jap skit was over today. (heng)
that leaves with....
- scrapbook
- storytelling
- mix and match book
- photography
- DM fun
- typo
hmmm. six items left. doesnt sound alot..
but... its aint easy man.

oh man. havent talked to alot of ppl nowaday.
hope to catch up with them soon.
two more wks man. sch will be over!
woohoo.

2006-01-09T17:49:00.000+08:00

BABY!
i changed ur layout.
but i dont really like it anymore.
i think it looks, WEIRD.
and somewhat girly?
doesit?
i change for yu tmr kays?
i want yu to view this first.
heh. (:

i miss yu!

2005-12-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

havent blogged for a long time.
so im here just to blog bout my new 'wife'
haha. ipod video baby!
thank u sweetie.
bestest xmas gift ever. =DDD
but de best gift that i ever had was YOU. =)
thank u! merry christmas. <3 ya

2005-11-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

wtf man. nvm

2005-11-22T12:13:00.000+08:00

oh man. im so useless. feel so inferior.
comparin the things u have done and bort for me with my gifts,
i dun deserve it.
ur love and sacrifices i often took for granted.
i wanted to make both days special.
i wanted to get two diff types of gifts for two diff days.
but i couldnt.
i failed.
i couldnt trust my own taste
and i didnt noe whether u will like what i chose.
wen i shop with u for ur gift,
i always fail to make u give in and choose what u wanted.
instead, u would just tell me not to waste money.
i noe what ure thinkin.
if u couldnt buy me what i want,
why cant u make it up by makin sth for me?

i have failed.
greatly.
i even fail to keep my promises.
will this spell de end of era?
i hope not.

2005-11-02T00:28:00.000+08:00

ok. i was told to update my blog.
sigh. lazy to blog nowadays..
anw.. mah babe got me jay chou's album november chopin
thankew. dun worry k. i'll pay u sooon.
oh. chopin is a french name actually. its like.. (cho-PAN)
yeah. i think de songs are rather good. better den de previous album.

eh. gf. if u really get into de pre u thingy.. u got to work hard ya.
follow ur family. study hard. b someone really big and earn big bucks.
in order to achieve that. i'll deprive myself of u.
i'll spend lesser time with u and all. u get what i mean.
sigh
but nevertheless, i still love u k? =)

2005-10-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

ohman. im havin an affair. everynight.. late at night..
i'll be... havin chocolates and snacks.
shit. sorry babe.

anw. was watchin the highlights for de match between real and rosenborg.
their second goal was sweet.

robinho dribbled pass this defender.

made a through pass to raul.

he drags de ball with is left foot to his right n slots it home.

ohman. it was damm nice. class. world class.

2005-10-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

havent blogged for some time.
hope the previous post wont get me into trouble. =/
anw, havent been workin for de past wk.
all de part timers didnt have to work for a wk.
coz they wanted to cut labor cost.
like.. wtf?
selfish assholes. this is de second wk aft de wk's break.
they STILL havent call us.
screw them la.
anw. de hols are comin to an end.
feelin its them fast. oh man
i dont want to go back to sch.

anw. went to isaac's church ytd.
jesus here i come! =/

oh. my dearest hui min ah..
dont be so upset about ur exams already ok?
now look forward to ur future ya?
ure like. SOO important to me.
more than that audrey-duno-whats-her-surname girl.
phon rat khun!

2005-09-29T02:01:00.000+08:00

haha. i read this from some blog. copied and paste. enjoy!

Clerk: Hear me hear me, Judge is in the house. All rise.

Everyone rise

Judge: So which case am I presiding today?
Clerk: Your honour, please refer to case #234, NKF’s defamation suit against SPH.
Judge: Sounds exciting. Will the defending counsel like to proceed?
Counsel Singh: Your honour, I like to call the plaintiff Mr TT Durai to the stand.

Mr Durai approaches the stand

Clerk: Mr Durai, will you please place your right hand on the Bible and do solemnly swear
Counsel Khoo: OBJECTION your honour! My client is a hindu.
Judge: Who cares.

Everyone laugh

Judge: Joking lah. Objection substained.The bible is promptly replace with a set of Hindu scriptures.
Clerk: Mr Durai, will you place your right hand on the scriptures and do solemnly swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the god damm truth, god dammit.
Durai: I do.
Clerk: You may now kiss the bride.

Everyone laugh again

Judge: *Wiping tears from his eyes* Oh man, this joke never fail to crack me up. Well done clerk. Counsel Singh, you may carry on.
Counsel Singh: Mr Durai, have you at any point of time installed a gold-plated tap in your bathroom.
Durai: No I don’t
Counsel Singh: LIAR YOUR HONOUR! HE’S A LIAR!
Judge: *Startled* Ni nabeh. You nearly make me pee in my pants.
Counsel Singh: Pardon my sudden outburst your honour. I would next like to call upon my first witness, Ms Yati Sudoharto, maid of the plaintiff.

A gangly woman approaches the stand

Counsel Singh: Ms Yati, while you were cleaning Mr TT Durai’s office, do you happen to notice a gold-plated tap installed in his bathroom?
Yati: Apa ini?
Counsel Singh: Nice one Yati. Trying to play dumb with me is it?
Yati: Apa?
Counsel Singh: Apa indeed Ms Yati. But you don’t fool me one bit.
Yati:Apa apa?
Counsel Singh: If you apa one more time Yati, I’m going to shove your apa up your ass and then it will really be apa ini for you. Ya hear me. Let me ask you again, did you or did you not see a gold-plated tap installed in Mr Durai bathroom while you were cleaning his office?

Long silence

Counsel Singh: Come on Yati, no one can help you now. Why don’t you just spit it out.

Yati spits on the floor.

Counsel Singh: Kaninah. I don’t mean this kind of spit lah.

The whole room erupted with laughter.

Counsel Singh: Yati, if you still avoid the question, the court will have no choice but to send you back to Bandah Aceh and we all know what Aceh is like right now don’t we? Hur hur.
Yati: You bad person. Yati no like you.
Counsel Singh: Like I care Yati, like I care. One last time Yati. Did you see a gold-plated tap installed in Mr Durai bathroom while you were cleaning his office?
Yati: Yah lah.
Counsel Singh: Ah ha! *looking damn smug* What do you say to that now Mr Durai?
Counsel Khoo: OBJECTION your honour. Counsel Singh is showing off.
Judge: Overruled. Being MM Lee personal lawyer, it's only right that we allow Counsel Singh to show off once in a while. Counsel Singh please carry on.
Counsel Singh: Thank you your honour. Mr Durai, will it now occur to you that your defamation suit against my client now appears to be ill conceived.
Durai: Damn you Singh. Damn you and your turban.
Counsel Singh: Your honour, to' kill off' this case, I like to call upon my next witness. He’s none other than (long pause for dramatic effect) “The Contractor”.

The whole room goes Ooooooooo. Some even soil their pants.

An Ah Pek approaches the stand.

Counsel Singh: Mr contractor, am I correct to say that you are the one responsible in installing the tap?Contractor: Ha nah.
Counsel Singh: Were you asked to install the gold-plated tap in Mr Durai bathroom?
Contractor: Si lah. That Ah Neh said he only want the best and he told me to install the gold one from the catalog loh. I sibeh buay song after that becos hor how can anyhow waste people money like that wan. Si bor?Durai: *looking agitated* Ok dammit. We did installed a gold-plated tap. There I admit it. But I see nothing wrong with it. It was entirely within the guidelines and regulations of the board. Everything that was done was above board.
Counsel Singh: You know Mr Durai, with regards to what you just said, we Sikhs have a old saying, “Milakum nahbahsoli krisnatham”. It means “What a pile of bullshit”.
Counsel Khoo: OBJECTION your honour. Counsel is insulting my client.
Judge: Overruled. Not only is Counsel Singh allow to show off, but he is also entitled to make sarcastic insults now and then. No choice. MM Lee personal lawyer mah.
Counsel Singh: Thank you your honour. With the testimonies of the two witnesses, we can safely conclude that the articles in question which were printed by my client has in no way defame Mr Durai in any capacity but were simply reporting and conveying the facts to its readers. Facts which we have already proven in this court. As such I would like your honour to end the session now and throw out this suit not only because of it's ridiculousness but also because I'm getting hungry.
Counsel Khoo: OBJECTION your honour. I haven't had my turn yet.
Judge: Objection my ass. I'm getting hungry too. Lets just adjourn for makan before resuming the session.
Clerk: Hear me hear me, the Judge is leaving for makan. All rise.

Everyone boh hew the clerk.

2005-09-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

DID YU HAVE FUN TODAY BABY?
sorry for not telling yu earlier.
heh. i'm blogging here for fun.
i'm BORED while yu're out BOWLING.
lalaladoo.
at least i get to watch APPRENTICE. (:
take care baby sweets.

LOVE, GIRLFRIEND.

2005-09-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

yay.. i got my early birthday present from my dearest gf.
thanks sweetie. i love it! =D
oh ya. its a watch.
"the watch is a leather-ish black one..with an lcd screen of a moving robot.SO CUTE RIGHT."
(copied from aud's blog.)
sorry. gave u so much trouble coz i couldnt decide on what which i wanted.
thank u anw ya? ur bdae 2 mths time.. tell me what u wan ok?
i'll spend half of what im gonna earn on ur bdae prezen ya. =D

anw, i've been workin at some place for de past wk.
6/hr. nt so bad. qutie tiring though.
xiang her gf n i went for de interview.
all of us got de job.
but in de end. they only called me.
haha. xiang rejected cartel coz she tort she had de job
but in de end.. haha. jobless. hahaha. okok. abit mean. but..
xiang.. call them!

2005-08-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

wooot.
everything is almost done. can finally slack. ahh..
cant wait for de holidays. cant wait for de new sem.
ppl will be seperated.
damm. im not gonna spoil my mood.
its like de holidays already.
anw. kien is goin overseas. 10 sept or sth.
so fast. if he leaves,
ting can flirt.
no 1 to play pool with.
no 1 to scold vulgarities with.
sigh. time flies man.

gf. u better study hard n stay here.
the list for if you leave.. will take up 1325 pages.
study hard ok? =)

2005-08-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

a few days ago, iain called me to ask me if i was free 10 am in de mornin, coz his mama booked a theatre.
i was wondering wad stupid event it was, so early in de mornin, and book theatre for wad?
haha. turns out to iains bdae. lol. pai seh. lagging.. happy belated birthday iain. hope ur 2 front teeth join up ya? haha. even if it doesnt.. be de 1st to put a tooth in de front ok? =/
anw, it was damm coolwatched charlie n de choco fac.. gold class.. seats damm comfy.. blanket, waiter somemore sia. lol. they even had chocolate aroma in de cinema. lol. next time must this again. whose bdae is comin?

sem comin to n end... gotta rush like shit to complete everythin.
so much work, so little time. shit man..

2005-07-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

i had to do some proj today
had to take pics of patterns n textures.
but my bro had de cam.
so i wen all de way to babee's place to borrow her cam.
wha. her parents were so nice la.
they helped me in everyway.
her mum took every thing out for me.
wen i couldnt print 8r, her dad offered to print for me.
no photo ppr, her dad wen all de way buy for me la.
oh man. im so lucky.
den my bro wanted to fetch me.. sayin he could only make it at 10+
i was thinkin how was her dad was goin to reject me.
so i asked him if i could stay longer anw. haha.
uncle, if ure reading this.. thank u!

sweeetie. i felt the love alright?
hehe. thank u. de trip was worth it.
i owe ur family a meal!

2005-07-15T00:24:00.000+08:00

haha. whenever some anonymous fellow spams my babe's blog,
all her frens will b there to bang that fellow back. lol.
babee.. u've got alot of gd frens. =)

anw, was listenin to 98.7 just now.
den daniel ong had some guess wads de sound contest.
sia la. muz b above 18 la.
den i used my bro's name n smsed in.
sia la. he read mine.
" jeremy says.. its a straw movin up n down a cup cover."
"duno wad duno wad duno wad."
haha. didnt guess correctly.
it was actually a wet finger rubbing a glass.

juz came back from some bbq.
damm pathetic la.
all guys.. and 4 girls.
all 4 attached.
wha lao. haha.
we played soccer more den we ate la.
n i didnt noe downtown east was walking distance from pasir ris mrt.
did they change de route or sth?
anw, i missed de freakin last train,
had to take a cab with only $14 on me.
the malay was nice..
" anythin more den 14.. discount for u.
BUT anythin less.. its mine"
lol. but it was 13.7 anw. so i told him to keep de change. haha.
sigh. 3 more days. 3 more essays. 11 more phtos.
die.

2005-07-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

hols r here. 1 week of holiday.
but got so much to do.
sian.
so much happenin recently..
sigh.

absense does make de heart grow fonder.
as i compare.
everythin seems so different now.
its not easy to please u.
but simple things others do is lyk so sweet to u.
ohman.
dis sucks.

2005-07-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

wen i read bout xinyang's prob,
haunting memories seemed to have risen frm their graves.
another 3 way shit.
juz wen u tort u have found ur perfect half,
her x comes back.
it all seems as though she got lost n took a ride on ur car.
everything is beautiful
throughout ur ride, u cant wipe off ur smile
butterflies in ur stomach.
u kept lookin in de rearview mirror..
into de eyes of de passenger.
den u think.. shes gotta b ur vip u wanna ride all ur life man!
but along comes her old car n offers another ride.
instead of turnin away, she reaches forward pulls de emergency brake
de sudden halt sends ur head crashin into de steering wheel..
ur mind spins out of control.
u duno what hit u.
de passenger looks at her old car n asks u.
can i go back to it?
dude. she has de cheek to ask man.
how do u feel now? used?
used as a spare while she hoped for her old car to pick her back up?
shes fickled right now.
she cant decide which car shud she hop on to.
shes fickled man..
now think abt it.
duz she really lyk ur car?
or juz de little service picking her up as she awaited her old one.
though she finally decides to stay only juz barely.
the car u two r in is already wounded n faulty.

anw. yang, whether ure reading anot,
im glad u were thinkin straight.
u didnt look anw else or hang loosely on de line.
ure not fickled ya.

where r u stars?
i already threw dem away wen u pulled de brakes
but dun think so much.
its all in de past..

2005-07-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

i learn how to play violin today!
haha.. was at aud's place..
was tryin to learn de organ.
coz piano is de only instrument i wanna learn outa music.
but not easy sia.. haha.
so miss yee taught me violin!
she taught me how to hold de violin n that stick.
den she taught me half of my 1st song..
twinkle twinkle little star.
haha.
babee.. u gotta play de violin for me at least once can.
cannot shy!
okok!?
=D

2005-07-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

last nite .. my room got mouse sia.
my bro was bout to slp.. den he saw sth movin up n down de wire.
he turned on de lights den he saw de mouse sia.
3 in de mornin, entire family awake.. bro dad catchin mouse
bro tried wakin me up
it was bout.. half de size of my hand.
everythin was thrown about.. cupboards moved abt..
only aft abt 1 hr of adventure, de mse was hammered to death by my bro.
haha. 1st time catchin mse man. fun but.. tirin.
oh. mouse can climb up wires n up cupboards.
they're good man. lol.

2005-06-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

was at 7-11 juz now, lookin for denta floss..
den i asked this indian guy workin there..
me: do u have dental floss?
black: dental floss? hmm. de mentos is over there.
me: nono. DENTAL floss. not mentos. u got not.
stupid black: dental floss? hmmm..
(looks arn and grabs listerine mouth wash)
black: is this dental floss? dis de only dental floss we have.

wha lan eh... how fuckin stupid can he be la
not bein racist.. but. indians.

if u wanna hide things from me, its ok.
i'll just trust u that ure sharin things with me.
n not juz with a particular person ya?

2005-06-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

sian. 4 wks have gone since sch started.
but de lecturers are already pumpin us with works sia.
sigh. kinda copin with everythin but wen de real thing starts..
die sia.
at least that old hag that teaches me 2d and 3d art praised my work sia..
wahaha.. song sia.
haiz. 2 projects r gonna due soon.
muz chiong sia.
sian.

2005-06-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

JOSHUA ANG,

pouts. i'm gonna be away once again.
it always seems so hard to let yu go..
though its just for a few days.
ohwells. yu take good care alrights?
i'm missing yu now and i'm gonna continue missing yu.
that short trip to the shop today,
it was worth it.
though i only stopped by for five mintues
and yu werent exactly free,
that short hug,
quick kiss,
look in your eyes,
and the little cartoon strip yu drew for me,
it warmed my heart and i knew for sure, (i think i'm sure)
yu're gonna be here when i return.
yu are the one i need. (:
yu changed me. (:
thankyu for friday,
and sunday. the trip to the museum was great.
and hilarious.
as for yesterday, thankyu for it all.
though yu had a whole lot of work to finish.
this passion i have with yu,
never felt before and can never be replaced.
thankyu sweetie.
i'm gonna miss the calls we have everyday.
gonna be soo bored there but nevermind.
i'll be back soon.
i promise.
i love yu sweetie. oceanloads! ((:

p.s: have fun on thursday! (:
p.p.s: (is there such thing?) YOUR PROJECT AR!

ISAAC! watch over joshua for me yea! LOL.

2005-05-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

wha. long time no blog sia.
anw.. it has been the 1st wk in sch.
everythin has been.. alrite la.
made new frens.
time table is diff frm each other.
no one in my orientation grp is in de same course man
sian.. den aft sch cannot find anyone sia.
either havin class or goin home la.
sian.. everyday after sch nth to do.
sigh. ohwells. when assignments start comin in..
i wun be complainin.
n shud i join dragonboat?
seniors in design say sure no time for cca.
aiya. sian. see how.

barbee.. i misshh youu

2005-05-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

wheee. i'm here for fun.
cos i'm tired of homework..
baby's going for a camp.
leaving me all alone.
but its fine.
three days will fly and we'll meet soon!
take care baby.
lovelove! :)
-me.

2005-05-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

sian. camp gonna start soon.
cant wait.. wanna get it done n over wif.
anw, got to spend de wkend at de shops.
mothers day and busy day for de chinese.
sian. cant find aud before my 3 day camp. =(
but den again. it will b over in 3 days.
which means it will b 10 days left to her freedom. lol.
quite fast leh.

haven been to proper studyin for mths.
its lyk.. time has gone by so fast.
sec sch ppl r already havin their exams.
holidays r comin.
n sch is onli startin for me.
okok. anw. here is a riddle.

chinese ppl pray to sins(hokkien for gods) right?
but what kinda sin ppl dun pray to? ppl. quick guess!

sorry for what happened on thurs. i guess i was juz affected by wad u said.i wish i could take back what i have said. i didnt think what u were goin through.all that u have done is all for me.instead of complainin, i should be grateful instead.but i wanna get this to yu.i want to be there for you. i cant bear to watch u suffer alone. i want to be there for u. especially durin this period of time. erm. yu noe. but if its your nature, i cant do anything abt it. but rmb. im always here for u. even when u doubt my feelings for u, im still here. ohwells.

26 june!

2005-05-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

im bored. anw. heres a joke i recieved tru email from my uncle...
pls remember to laugh.. give some face. thank u..

A man is taking a walk in Central park in New York
Suddenly he sees a little girl being attacked by a pit bull dog
He runs over and starts fighting with the dog.
He succeeds in killing the dog and saving the girl's life.
A policeman who was watching the scene walks over and says:
"You are a hero, tomorrow you can read it in all the newspapers:
"Brave New Yorker saves the life of little girl".
The man says: "But I am not a New Yorker!"
Oh then it will say in newspapers in the morning:
"Brave American saves life of little girl" the policeman answers.
"But I am not an American!" - says the man.
Oh, what are you then?"
The man says: "I am a Pakistani!"
The next day the newspapers say: "Islamic extremist kills innocent American dog".

ha ha ha! cmon ppl.. laugh with me! ._.

2005-04-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

wha.. long time no blog. sigh.
haven really been in de mood these days.
sigh.
anw.. i miss all my frens.
they are all either booked by their girlfrens, boyfrens or jc.
sian.. jc n poly holidays fall on differen periods of de yr as well.
anw, we're plannin to meet up soon. some of us.
4th may. wed. aft sch. town.
den some time durin june, sentosa.
if u r readin this. u r invited. haha.
bu jian bu san.

then i rather not have it.
you said it yourself.

2005-04-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

what a day.
it's mama's bdae.
but that wasnt de highlight of de day.
blaady hell.. got chased by a dog today. haha.

was cycling in de evening at some car park near my place.
where all de buses and trucks were.
den i heard some dog barking.. but i ignored.
as i cycled, i saw a dog behind a bus.
i tort i could cycle pass de bus before de dog could see me.
bloody hell. de fukin dog jumped out n started chasing me.
wth la. sped my ass off.
fukin dog rite at mi tail.
neh neh. sharp turn ahead. was thinkin. die. sure cannot make it.
bloody hell kannah de curb.
flew forward, off my bike. but managed to stay on my feet.
was runnin lyk crazy with mi upper body fallin forward.
ran round some bus. THEN that dog ran underneathe de bus la!
that dog was lyk RIGHT beside me
when some ah peh shouted at de dog n saved my ass.
anti climax to de story but still. thank god for that old angel in disguise. lol.

kao. so sway sia.
almost appeared in newspaper sia.
' Boy's fat ass chased by stray dog. Recieves 13 stitches.'
wha.. what n experience! lol.

2005-04-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

went for my medical check up today at raffles hosp.
was lucky to reach there before the crowd came.
anw.. waited for quite some time still. damm long sia.
man. i juz found out why there is alwaes a long queue in de ladies
blaaady hell.. de girls take so long to shee shee wan.
when 1 of dem came out, i was lyk.. WHA. FINALLY.
blaaady hell.. still got 3 more...
hmm. i think de 1st girl cheated sia..
her urine sample was very clear..
bet she scooped de water frm de toilet bowl sia..

aft that.. i went for an xray, den de check up with de doc.
suprisingly.. i dun haf anythin sia.
no diabetes no high blood no cancer. *phew*
wads more.. im finally taller and... still as heavy.
haha. aft de checkup.. i went to novena to look for mah darlingzZzz (neighborhood style)
though we onli had 1/2 n hr, it was all worth it.

i'll treasure the times we'll have.
cause its so little..
that makes it even more precious.
=)

2005-03-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

whao. neva blogged for daes.

anw. haven really been goin out these few days.

someone grounded for 2 mths.

den i hafta stay home more often so my dad wun make noise.

anw. it hasnt been a good start to de sch for my baby.

all de shit happenin. sigh.
nth that i can do.
haiz.

wha. nth to blogg abt.
erms. oh ya.
went for an interview at tcc.
part time waiter.
wth. $4.50 an hr.
forget it man.

sigh. im very bored these daes. n everithing.
sum1 help me....?
haiz. 58 more daes!

2005-03-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

wha.
sum baboon called me at 830 in de mornin.
go east coast. lols.
was damm tired. but was thinkin:
aiya. wake up already. mite as well go. oso cannot slp le.
haven gone out for 2 daes oso. haha.
anw, wenta east coast.
cycled for FOUR hrs.
crazy la. paid for 2 hrs. but they gave us 4 hrs in total.
duno how tt came abt. haha.
anw, sarina DAMN HEAVY SIA.
she was bladin.
den she has to hang onto ppl's bag while they cycle
can u imagine runnin in cement?
neva see u for a wk..
WHAT DID U EAT SIA.
it was good exercise for mi muscular thighs though.
hahaha. kiddin kiddin. haha.
anw. wenta play pool aft tt.
was sooo off form.
but still.. too good for de rest. haha.
shit. okok. im abit too bhb le.
errs. gonna slp early tonite.
damm tired. gonna haf a good dae tmr!
=)

2005-03-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

sian.
spent de day at home sia..
was on de fone wif mah babe de whole dae.
haha..
wanted to go find her tmr or sth.
but sumbody says NO.
dowan to see me until mondae sia..
fine. u say wan.
not even on de 18th of march.

2005-03-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

was at de barker carnival todae.
man did it suck..
think de one we had in sec 1 n 2 was much beta.
man i miss those days.

anw. de games there sucked big time la.
think de foto takin wif de cow was beta la.
spent almost all of mi coupons on food n wierd stuff la
bort sum plastic paller tt u melt n shape into.
kinda cool though.

met up wif sum ppl there.
eve was there wif her frens. dressed almost de same.
eve. mi fren said tt.. but wad he meant was u were hot! hahaha.
den anna was there as well.
if u guys duno hu she is..
she is sum girl in de channel 8 comedy nite.
contestant to b tt joshua ang's gf...?
doubt any of u will rmb la.
anw... she looks still de same..
taller..
errs.. still.. no la. got lose abit of weight. haha =)
ng hwee fern was there as well.
she was tellin me how she miss teaching 2b1. haha.

left de place at abt 5.
wenta town wif kien, sim n his bro.
ate at ljs b4 kien pang seh us again to meet his gf.
wenta play pool wif sim anw.
won everi game i played wif him! haha..
den joined kien's bro n his frens in snooker.
wha. man do i need to train...

juz watched MIB2.
took sum time to clean de disc..
coz wen we watched, it was all scratchy n jumpy.
father complain sia..
WHOSES DVD IS THIS SIA. lol.
anw, still manage to watch de show.
kinda good..

eh. i got n emergency now.
gotta go shit.

2005-03-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

damm. de MOST embarassin thing happened to me
it juz dropped out of mi wallet la.
Y M I SO CLUMSY.
anw.
aud n i tried to plan a buffet for de rest.
they were indecisive n din appreciate wad we were doin.
juz a simple question. WAN OR DOWAN.
u guys had to dilly dally n simply juz say anithin.
and THAT asshole had to add in..
"do u guys wan to go seoul garden coz audrey wanna go or u really wanna go."
she was being nice by askin everyone whether they r interested in goin.
if u werent interested, y de fuck did u follow us.
asshole. fuck off n suck ur MUM's dick.

anw. luckily i had mirza n huss sitin wif me.
enjoyed de buffet totally.
thanks guys.
things were even beta wen he left early.
scrumptious meal. neva enjoyed food lyk dis for sum time.

aft tt.. wenta play at cine Kpool.
1st time playin snooker in a yr.
man i need practice.
all de pool i've had screwd mi snooker.
hmmm. but i was neva good in snooker.
haha. ohwells.

2005-03-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

sigh. headache sia. din noe wad to choose..
kaoz. sorry for all de trouble aud.
thanks alot. =)
anw..
had interview for de interactive media design/movin images course at TP.
I GOT IN! haha..
was dam nervous la. tort they juz wanted to see mi drawins.
den 1 of dem said.. since u lyk animations, if i give u a ppr, can u draw one of us as a character?
i was lyk.. erm. i'll try. so i drew one of dem. whao..look lyk him! kinda impressed him.. hahaha.
but de worst part was wen they asked questions lyk..
wads de latest movie u watched? wad isit abt?
tell me a story. any story of ur own. come up wif one rite now.
wth la. kana stunnded sia..
ohwells. anw.. i got into de course.
its gonna start on de 16th of may.
but damm scared its not rite for me!

2005-03-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

sigh. where to go.. jc or poly?
stupid moe. give us so little time to decide.
cant bloody decide wad course to take in poly.. KAO.
think im gonna try for cjc. appeal n all.
if not.. srjc..? =/
crap la. afraid of de stressful life in jc..
but u cant expect poly to not haf any stress at all.
sigh.. HOW. one dae plus to decide...
screw it la.

2005-02-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

(*&@#%(*&@#%(&@$#(&*%@($^(@#&%()*&@
TWENTY POINTS.
wth la..
20
arg.
tmd.
knn.
ccb.

sigh. expected to do slightly beta.

emath - a1
amath - a2
phy - b3
chem - b3
eng - c5
sshist - c6

wha..wasted sia..
if onli i did beta got mi sshist.
ohwells. its over.
n im aimin for poly..
so y care so much?

5 daes.
120 hrs.
tts all i haf to think wad course to take.
kaoz..
where got time.
wad to take la.
can sum 1 help me?!

2005-02-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. long time no blog! lol.
ohwells. results r comin out soon.. veri soon..
heard tt its gonna b on dis comin monday.
good luck to everione out dere.
anw.. u guys heard abt de rumours abt de.. teacher letter thingy?
its all bullshit la. wth la..
below 17 points.. 14-20.. 13-18.. 17-25.. all sorts of numbers popin out.
results r comin out le. no point thinkin abt it anw.

life in mi is gonna end soon..
though it was definately enjoyable wif de ppl arn..
dere r still sum ppl spoilin everithin..
startin rumours n hurtin ppl.
but hu to blame but miself.
choosin 2 pretend nth happened..
n mi actions haf earned me an unwanted status in sch.
a flirt. wad de hell..
1stly.. how 2 flirt wif a F-ed up ugly face.
isit wrong just talkin to ppl?
wth do ppl mean by im alwaes surounded by girls.
juz bcoz dey see me once or twice wif mi frens..
dey judge me dis wae..?
1st 2 mths already lydat. wth la.
screw it la..

eh. sarina. sorry for draggin u into dis.
ppl juz love gossipin.
apparently us bein good frens can b mistaken as a couple.
ohwells.
praise de lord.. sch endin.
dun hafta see those kay-pohs n sam gu lok pohs. haha.
will definately keep in contact wif de rest.
5 more daes.. results comin out..
shit.. cannot think so much.
good luck ppl.
remind me to blog again.

2005-02-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

chinese new yr is damm borin..
ppl here n dere r missin..
bro stuck in aust.
relatives dyin.
so alot of ppl cant celebrate cny.
gamble oso no kah kee..
mi winnings dropped from $60 plus to onli 20 la.
tmd.

played soccer on fri.
now i've got a singlet shaped tan line.
sexy sia.. lol.
mi neck is burnin....

yay. i can finally start goin out again.
wad did i tell u..
im good! lol.
okok.. remind me. NOT to abuse mi freedom...again.
haizz.

vdae is comin.
and for de 1st time..
i'll b givin sum1 sth!
isaac and iain.
dun get too excited. nth for u two. LOL.
bort sum chocs for auddiee. =)

necks burnin.
feel lyk shittin..
sch reopenin..
how?

2005-02-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

shit.
it has been lyk... 24623 years since i blogged.
din really haf de mood to blog oso.
ohwells.

dad indirectly grounded me.
cant go out..
cant use de comp aft 10pm. lyk... wad de hell la.
but thanks to mi suckin up skills..
im at least in talkin terms wif him
soon.. i'll b able to abuse mi freeedom and go out again.
haha.

i duno how it all ended lyk dis.
im sorry i hurt u so badly
it hurts me to see u sufferin lyk dis.
hate me. curse me. but juz dun hurt urself.

i duno wad u mean by all de lies i made.

in de letter tt u wrote...?

sorry i left u hanging without givin u ani ans.

thank u for everithin.

u taught me so much.

u showed me so much

ure a great girl a guy cud onli wish for.

i aint bulling here.

its true.. my head is growin bigger.

thank u.

chinese new yr is juz tmr.

time to collect angbaos and gamble.

time to make money.

2005-01-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

sigh. onli a few more wks..
den life in mi will b over.
haha. gotta enjoy i can!

life in sch is really slack.
havin fun makin lots of frens.
de onli turn off so far..
is sum ppl goin abt talkin abt me n aud.
duno wassup wif him but im gonna clarify things b4 doin anithing

anw. played pool today.
mr brag-alot aka kevin sim was bein himself as usual.
talkin abt him being quite good n beatin everione he played wif last wk.
not tt im boastin but.. i let mi game do de talkin.
thrashed his monkey ass inside out outside him.
evan tang. if ure readin dis. i'll get mi revenge on u soon. lol.

haha. mum was talkin abt her love life with mi dad in de pass..
and her 30 YEAR OLD lie she kept frm mi dad. haha.
mum's so cute.
her stories r relly interestin. whaha.

aye. see u soon...
in a wk.

2005-01-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

wha.. damm sian. been goin home late recently.
dad not happy i guess..
he juz sold his 2nd wife todae.
whao.. cant believe he actually cud bear sellin his beloved goldwing.
lol. now he is learnin how to take de train whereever he goes. whaha.
aye. damm tired. wanna slp soon.

i duno wads goin through ur mind.
i thought everithin has gone back to normal.
until ytd wen u suddenly scared me.
u started thinkin alot.
u bcame veri upset wif me as usual..
n u slit ur wrist.
i duno wads goin on now.
but all i noe is tt im a fukin ass.
i shudnt haf hurt u so deeply.
but all im askin now is ur forgivness.
juz one more try. one more chance.
its all i need.

phon rat khun.

2005-01-16T01:19:00.000+08:00

wha. one week le. neva blog.
hmm. dis week.. i've been goin out almost everidae.
die.. parents wun b happy.
think dad has given up on me. lol.
anw. haf been out wif mi og ppl.
plyed pool, hung arn aimlessly.
plyed truth or dare almost all de time.
dey were alwaes askin abt hu lykin hu.
coz apparently, deres sum love triangle.
or rather.. love hexagon. haha. kinda cute.

watched de aviator wif audiie.
man was it stupid.
3 hrs long. borin show.
fell aslp durin de show 4 times can.
but de onli thing i enjoyed was de chocolate. =)
erm.. pls dun watch it.
unless u got too much time.
but still.. save de money.
donate to de tsunami victims. or to me.
do a good deed before christ comes.

anw. was out wif mi og ppl todae.. again
hung arn bugis and suntec before goin to de brewford stadium
its sumwhere near chijmes.
we were dere watchin de liv n manu match.
yay.. man u won!
it was veri packed dere..
atmosphere was kinda cool.
super big screen. haha.

and erm. i did sth real bad todae.
i wanna confess mi sin.
for de first time ever in mi entire life.
i stole. =(
it was kinda late.. we were in 7-11.
fren n i took donuts.
den we juz quickly walked out
de cashier was damm blur. lol
sigh. i sinned. HOW.

it has been so quick.
two wks gone juz lyk tt.
onli 5-6 more wks to enjoy ourselves.

2005-01-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i've blog.
so here i m again.
anw.. ytd wen to town to meet kien n sim
on de spot, dey ask me to go to s.h.e concert. lol.
though i hate s.h.e to de core
i still wen for it coz i missed jay chou's concert de other time.

aft de concert, sim n i wen to kfc for supper.
kien sent ting home.
apparently dey broke up lyk. 2 nights ago.
den kien's bro sent us all to his place.
stupid kien.. talked on de fone for 2 hrs
left me n sim wif his bloody irritatin brother.
kaoz.
den at abt 4am.
so cool la.. we climbed out of his window (size of de wall)
den we sneaked to de main gate n out to 7-11.
halfwae dere, we realised we din take out ani cash la.
luckily kien had 5 bucks. so we cudnt buy much.
reached back at abt 5.
ate magee. den dey mixed coke wif bacardi or vodka.
kien drank quite alot den he was kinda high.
tmd. den he gayed wif me on his bed while i was 3/4 slping.
kicked him off de bed, n he slpt wif sim on de mattress.
had his comfy bed all to miself. muahaha.
slpt frm 6-9.
veri tired.
*yawnz*

2005-01-04T20:40:00.000+08:00

1st dae of sch.
really borin.
deir plannin sux lar.
how can dey put ALL de talks on de 1st dae.
damm sian.
but its onli de 1st dae.
but ppl lyk adelian wen to collect withdrawal form on de 2nd dae already. lol.
hmm. managed to see some familiar faces in de MI.
pri sch mates lyk. kenneth n philip ang.
think de girl in mi group is mi kindergarden classmate. hmmm..
de 1st dae was kinda quiet la. aiya. de 1st dae sucked big time.
de onli fun dae was.. was sabohing ppl n watchin ppl doin forfeits. lol.

2nd dae of sch.
was beta i think.
though i was forfetited to do sum dance.
3 of us kannah.
a girl sang as another guy n i danced to -she bangs-
felt dam stupid but it cracked up de group at least. lol.
had our nails painted black as our grp's identity.
damm gay la.
hmmm. de MI dance was kinda lame.
cha cha cha..? de moves repeated all de time la.
tmr is de last dae of orientations.
gonna haf games and all.
wha. became mi grp's mascot can.
guess wad isit la..
a baby. -.-''
damm sway la. super lame mascot as well.
i was made to do it coz no-one wud do it as well.
everione in de grp was either spoilsports, or super nerdy.
onli 3 guys in mi grp dun wear specs la.
think even i m counted as cool la. haha.
sad rite.
tmr. im gonna look damm stupid la.
HOW. tsunami. come spore. i welcome u.

SHIT. de hamsters died.
hahaha. sorry!
crap. im veri sorry.
lol. de hamsters died in mi hands.
but dey look so peaceful wen dey died.
both lied beside each other.
sobs.
but.. im really sorry..!!

2005-01-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

wad suprise! lol.
was awoken at 12 by audie's msg.
she msged me to ask me for a favour.
she asked me to collect a prezen frm her bung frm called kah yee or sth.
was super tired n half aslp to do anithin, so i wen back to slp
den she kept on callin me sayin tt fren was waitin for me.
i was wonderin.. if her fren was gonna meet me. y is she callin me instead?
haha. as i suspected. audie was waitin sumwhere near de lift. lol.
good suprise plan baby.. but not well executed. haha..
and sorry for chokin u. =P
NO MORE next time kae.

ohwells. though it wasnt a good dae for mi family, she kept me company.
sum miscommunication between mi dad n bro.
apparently it was bcoz of a 6230 fone.
to make things worst,
dad had bad luck playin mahjong. a bad toothache.
and two rooms being occupied by his two sons. includin his. haha.
bro's last dae in spore not a veri good one.
both of dem r not seeing each other.
avoidin each other.
sigh.. de new 6230 fone is in de livin room.
no one dares to touch it. lol.
dad's face is blacker den those bangladesh in town.
everione is runnin awae frm him.

its 115am.
sch starts tmr.
and im not aslp yet.
think im de onli one.
y is everione in diff OG?
ohwells.
though sch has started.
we'll still meet up ya guys? see ya arn.
im gonna crash at other JCs.
whos in wif me?

2005-01-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
yeah. its finally de new yr. 2005 has come.
dis new yr, will b a beta one for everi1 ya?
for all de 16 yr olds,
its gonna b a new environment, new sch, new ppl, more stress.
if ure goin MI at toh tuck, ure gonna c blacks everiwhere.
2 more daes ppl. schs gonna reopen.
for those not goin aniwhere..
find a job or bore urself to death.

new yr's eve. we spend de dae walkin arn town.
den kien called me at abt 10 to tell me to join him at his place.
see wad i mean.10pm. and ure askin ppl. abit lag rite.
anw, was at zac's church and ps frm 10-1am.. to n fro.
walked arn town lookin for cab onli to see blacks everiwhere
cudnt see dem actually.. it was lyk.. floatin eyeballs n bottles everiwhere.
those bangladesh celebratin de onli time of de yr, were damm irritatin la.
sprayed those.. party foam at practically everione la. kaoz
yup. wen ure de victim u curse n swear.
wen ure not de victim u laugh at others. lol.
aft we finally got a cab, we wenta eve's hse.
watched movie, played ps, used her comp, slacked arn.
den we played truth or dare.
neh.. dey played juz to ask ME questions la. haha.
den we listened to songs being played backwards. kinda cool! haha.
wha. damm tired sia. got home at abt 5.
took a bath n wenta slp right awae. zzzzZ

anw. eh. sorry xiang. im apologizin to u publicly
erm. duno whether ure angry not.
but sorry.. din go ur hse.
tort ur frens wud b goin so i tort i felt wierd as de onli guy dere.
den isaac wasnt goin.
iain had plans, onli joined me later that mornin.
was really tired in de mornin to travel to woodlands.
thanks to some ppl. i was broke la.
no money for cab. n i din wan u to pay for it as well.
eh. sorry. paiseh paiseh.
u din go uncle's party partly bcoz of me.
den i neva go in de end.
eh. 50% kae. not 99.9% . lol.
eh.. paiseh.

haha. juz now mi bro n i were arguin hu was to cook magee mee.
den mi mum was lyk,
"aiya. u expect him to cook ar.
i cook la i cook la."... lookin kinda pissed.
i wenta to stop her knowin she was pissed.
she was tryin to light de stove and i was dere blowin off de lighter.
haha. den she shouted at me.. wad u wan la!?
i din notice de pot of tea on de stove.
she was tryin to boil tea... -.-"

2004-12-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

im drifting awae frm my 'frens'.
de ppl i hung out wif for mi pass 4 yrs.
especially kien.
i wanna break awae frm dem.
u might say tt im petty, sensitive n over reacting.
i dun care wad u think.
but if u were in mi shoes,
i dun think u'll lyk it.
sick n tired of de shit dey gave me.
i wanna go 2005 with a totally new life.
a new life.
good thing im not goin barker animore.
i wanna make new frens.
de fun ppl i recently got to noe frm wesley.
ppl i'll meet from m.i,
n soon poly.
i dun care being a loner.
it beats having ppl wif fuked up attitude arn u.
sigh. seriously duno wads wrong wif me.
maybe its bcoz of de sth tts bothering me.
(its not abt her not seeing me n resting instead)
i dowanna care abt anithin rite now.
i juz wanna enjoy miself.
not gonna b bothered by anithin.
sian. wad a wae to end de yr.
2 more daes.

2004-12-29T01:42:00.000+08:00

yay.. she juz called.flight was delayed or sth.
de plane waited for her family for lyk. 2hrs? LOL.
wanted to go out to meet her or sth.
budden shes tired. n she has her plans or sth.
ohwells. sian. think i go slp now.
not gonna wake up until afternoon.
kaoz.

2004-12-29T01:41:00.000+08:00

thanks yang.. good job!
aiyer. budden still.. u play cheat la.
do nice nice for zac. sigh.
y so biased wan.
lol. kiddin. thx for de skin. owe u another one!

sian. shes supp 2 land in spore by now.
budden she din call or msg me b4 she left.
nth frm her. hmmm. wad happen leh?
ohwells. i guess i juz hafta wait for her to call me or sth.

y m i waitin... y m i waitin..

2004-12-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

yOo. XINYANG THE GREAT invades.

okie i tell u josh.
you owe me, BIG TIME.

hahas. anyways. erms
i dont really know how to do layouts for GUYS.
so make do ya? hahahas.

yuppppp.
ciaooos. time to make isaac's.

troublesome pple?!

2004-12-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

its de 27th.
she shud b returnin tmr night.
budden she wun b stayin long.
aiya.. sian. but still,
if we meet up tmr nite, early mornin, everi second is precious. =)

one more wk den sch reopens.
cant finally stay awae frm home n stay outside.
still no idea wad m i gonna do.
go sch everidae?
or find a job n go sch on n off?
hmmm.

sian. nth to blog abt todae.
hurry. come back. wanna see u.
even for juz 10 mins. it wud be 10 hrs to me.
KIN

2004-12-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

juz wen i was lookin forward to de night of 28th of dec.
de day wen she wud return aft so long.
she msged me today tellin me de change of plans.
shes gonna visit sum relatives in her kampung coz dey met n accident.
she will still return on de 29th as scheduled.
but she will either stay for a dae,
or catch de earliest flight 2 malaysia on de same dae.
sigh. sian ji bwar. sian half.
cant spend xmas n new yr's countdown wif her.
ohwells. wad can i do.

im lyk runnin a thousand km marathon.
wif juz 20 metres left, i see de finishin line juz ahead.
den two monkeys pick up de two ends of de finish line
and start runnin awae frm me.
wha..

anw. played pool todae wif isaac n eve.
lost form. so long neva play. sigh. haha.
went for supper wif mi family. sum kinda reunion dinner.
bro will b in spore for another wk b4 leaving for another 5 mths.
ate at sum joo chiat restaurent.
has xo sotong mee, thai spicy chicken and sum steamed fish.
yummy. =9

anw guys, thx for de concern.
i'll b fine. =)
got THREE xmas cards! haha.. thx!
most number of cards i recieved kae. LOL.

countdown party will b one person short.
but we'll still enjoy ourselves ya?
hu can provide de place?! haha
im not gonna ask ani of mi classmates.
kien, kevin sim n zhixuan.
dey'll juz waste mi fukin breath n effort.
dey can juz screw deir mums.
i've had enuff of deir shit.
dun worry iain. ure invited if u got nth on.
hmm dis is de longest entry yet.
im so proud of miself.
happy readin! haha.

2004-12-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

merry christmas everyone!!
hmm. kinda laggin coz its passed 12.
but anw, hope u guys enjoyed christmas!

spend de dae wif zac and his church frens.
8 of us spent de dae travellin n walkin arn to 3 diff places to check movie timins.
in de end, wenta to beach rd ullu but super big theatre to watch movie.
watched kung fu hustle. haha. was funny. expected more though.
everi1 was almost dead aft de show. soo tired frm all de walkin.
had dinner den wen back home.
reached home, fall aslp and woke again at 1130.
was eatin bah kut teh wen mi bro came back to suprise us. lol. but dad was out.
den she called over frm states to wish me merry xmas. =)
was really funny how we suprised mi dad 230 in de mornin. haha.
had a 'family reunion chat' arn 3am. *yawnz*
tired. legs r aching.
sorry. i cudnt talk to u. anw, its onli 3 more daes. =))

2004-12-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

was suppose to join de rest 2dae at jurong, ice skaitin.
wanted to join dem but mi mum screwd mi plans again.
wanted me to stay home to look aft de shop again. sian.
but den again. dun think i missed out alot coz dey wudnt b doin anithin fun oso.
aiya. dowan to tok abt wad happen todae.
anws.. spent xmas eve at home, online talkin to ppl, playin games.
parents and lil bro wen club leavin me alone at home. =)
aiya. onli xmas eve. new yr's eve will b beta. bring on de party.
anw.. merry christmas to all!!
hohoho.. =)

2004-12-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

tired. wanna slp.
wen to zac's church for sum xmas program.
stupid zac. left me alone while he left for sum audition.
was sittin alone. had 3 conversations wif 3 ppl. dots.
den isaac finally came. sang songs, watched skit, candlelighting was fun. haha.
left de place at abt 10. wen for supper at kopitiam.
was damm hungry sia. din eat frm 2 til 10 place.
de huge plate of korean bbq chicken wasnt enuff though.
over supper,
dey were tokin abt deir experience wif de kids n ghost in cambodia. haha..
got home at abt 1130. suprised daddy din scold me! hmm..
den she wen onlin as well. talked to her until we played a lil too far.
sorry. mi fault. din mean it. next time.. wait. no more next time. =)
5 more daes!

2004-12-23T01:47:00.000+08:00

sian. dun feel lyk bloggin. but relly sian.
anws,wenta ps todae. met zac n his church frens for lunch.
wenta pasta mania. had... bacon aglio..? wasnt feelling la.
den we wen to ywca buildin where dey were rehearsin sum play.
was kinda funny seein dem rehearsin.
tt indian guy. called... sashimi or sth? haha. comical sia..
at 4 plus, wenta meet chang n fatdog at meridian.
played lan for a while den wenta meet zac n his church frens again for dinner.
u can neva put teresa n her bro together wif zac.
kaoz. throughout dinner dey were luffin their ass off bcoz of zac's lame jokes.
has been a long time since i luffed so hard.haha. thx guys. lol.
2 more daes to xmas! 6 more daes til u return. =)

2004-12-21T14:23:00.000+08:00

din blog last night. was too tired anw.
ytd, wenta sentosa wif yang nessa iain zac n his two frens.
sorry for makin u guys wait for me ya? had to look aft de shop la.
sian. always lydat wan.
wun go into detail wad we did.
anw, we cycled, walked all over de beach wantin to kayak n all. in de end oso neva.
slacked arn for most of de time. ate yang's ''sandwiches'' lol. 1 of a kind.
played arn in de sea, took fotos, got de girls wet n had fun. =)
left de island abt abt 730, went for dinner at macs b4 headin home.
man. m i tired. zzz. ass is sore. legs hurt. knee sprained. eyes sore. no tann.
sigh.

2004-12-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

WHHEEE. saw vivian hse todae!
was walkin home den saw her n some other celebs gettin off a van.
dey wen to sum restaurent to eat.
man.. was she CUTE!*drools*
wasted.. neva take pic wif her or anithin. sigh.
WHA.. DAMM CHIO!

anw. wasted mi entire dae at de shop again. sigh.
and de hamsters got a new cage!
was playin winnin 11 until she msged me. yay.
hmmm. aft goin onlin for de pass few daes,
she most prob wun b able to go online animore le. =(
ohwells. we're halfwae dere! 10 more daes.

2004-12-19T01:26:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9 todae. so early. thx to adelian.
eh. i dun owe u animore!! lol.
sian.. wenta iain's hse early in de morin
coz ade wanted to upload songs into her ipod.
den i was supp 2 go dere n erm. make sure nth happens.=)

was dere. nth much happened until baby called!
yupps. 1st time i heard her since 9th.
wha. her voice was damm sexy la. lol.
next time muz full blast her aircon. haha.
she had lyk $19 left in de card.
talked to me for abt 6 mins plus den she got cut off.
$3 per min. no more value. lol.
mmms. den talked to her onlin as well.
she was pissed off bcoz of sum person.
ohwells.

at iain's place. used de comp. played isketch. eh. fun le.
http://www.isketch.net/
den left de place at 5. wenta macs for late lunch.
man was i hungry. come to think of it. todae i onli had ONE meal.
yupps. den wen 4 a night run at de park.
kaoz. 4got to warm down.
reached home, almost fainted can. =S
ohwells.. unfortunately, i din die.

sian. tmr sundae. gotta stay home again.
ohwells. 11 more daes ya?

2004-12-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

dis is seriously killin me..
everidae stay home n not touch mi fone.. sian can.
but todae was de 1st time i sms so much since.. 9th?
come back.. blow mi bill up again. its gonna b so lil dis mth.
played ps whole dae again.
den had mi beauty slp in de aftnoon.
was awoken by sum wierd singin.
wondered whie sum woman was singin jay chou's songs.
tmd.. mi bro was playin wif de pitch tunin. -.-''
jay sounded lyk michael jackson man.. haha.

come to think of it, it has onli been 8 daes.
12 more to go. eh.. damm slow le.
Mr Time.. hurry up. i dowan to wait ani longer.
i cant.
coz i miss her alot. =(
KIN LE. knnbccb

8 daes has passed.
8 more daes to xmas.
12 more to go.

2004-12-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

wanted to go out todae.
budden scared lao peh kp.
so i tort i'd stay home, b guai kia. =)
supp to go for de job trainin todae but din.
tt lady at de job interview, aka regene, scolded yang 2dae. haha..
said sth abt we shud go down n explain y we're not comin.
cudnt b bothered anw.. ignored her in de end.
anw.. think i can pass as a 19 yr old kid.
tt regene tort i was 19,
i bort lyk.. erm... illegal stuff.
and i bort toto todae. haha.

todae was so borin.
den onli highlight of de dae was wen mi bro was playin comp upstairs.
mum n i stood outside n took turns throwin lemon at de window. haha.
kinda fun actually. accurate, hit window. lousy, hit de neighbor.
lol. tts life havelock rd. u'll alwaes find sth to do.
-.-

sigh. 13 more daes. sigh. juz slightly less den 2 wks.
haven talked 2 her for 2 daes. wkend is coming.
hope she'll b able to go online or sth.
i miss u.
shuddup yang. i noe u miss isaac. but dun need to tell me here.

2004-12-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

wth. sell electromagnetic bed pads at $2000 each?
waste time can.. hu will buy loh.
anw, accompanied yang 2 a job interview.
2 ppl talked de whole dae n wasted their own breath.
most importantly, wasted mi time..
coz im not gg back dere animore.

aft wastin 3 hrs, wenta town 2 look for de rest.
isaac was at yoshi wif his church frens.
flirtin... as usual. sigh..
den kien was wif sim, seah. ting brought along 2 guys.hmmm.
i still dun understand y ting dowanna go on dates alone wif kl.
dey watched bridget jones.
sim n seah found it so borin, dey walked out of de theatre n played arcade. lol
aft de show, ting totally ignored kl.
she walked arn cine n left for chinatown wif her 2 guyfrens, kl juz followed blindly.
found out ting was angry wif kl coz he din take responsiblity 4 his actions.
apparently, he screwed up de plans 4 de genting trip.
sigh.. in case u guys duno,
never get lim kien leong to plan trips, even to town.
it will neva go smoothly.
he is de dunno-how-la kid.
i duno mi mother la. i duno where m i now.
i duno wad im doin now.
yups. tts kien leong.

2004-12-15T01:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm. din blog ytd.
anw, baby wen online for de past 2 nights. yay..
she stayed online extra long juz to tok 2 me. thx
but wun b able 2 tok to her for at least 4 daes. =(
hope shes enjoyin herself though.

wen out wif yang, nessa n pau 2dae.
i noe.. 3 girls n a guy. felt dam extra though.
yang dam bad sia..
made pau watch movie instead of lettin her go visit her sick bf. lol.
den yang, nes n i went 4 buffet at sakae.
ended playin la.
hide a sushi in de ginger thingy,
stacked up all our plates.
hmmm. think de sushi guy got irritated wif us.
hope de camera din catch mi face.
or we'll b banned frm goin dere next time. =S
den wenta play pool wif iain.
he was wif 2 15 yr old girls.. hu looked lyk pri sch kids. lol.
sorry iain for humiliatin u ya? haha..

14 more daes!!!
we'll hold on kae?
i miss u alot.
and i finally watched 'man on fire'. haha
je t'aime

another borin dae

2004-12-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

sian. im gonna die of boredom if dis carries on.
spent a sunday at home, at de shop.
cleaned de hamsters' cage.
and uncle is gonna pass me some 'high class' cage tt he duzen use anymore.
den played mi ps2 for a while.
now bout to leave 2 CBClub.
gonna celebrate dad's bdae, which is tmr.
anw.. 16 more daes!
sigh..im missin u alot.

fly time... fly.

Zzz

2004-12-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

woke up de dae wif a bad gastric.
but thanks 2 mummy, de pain was gone. (=
spend de entire dae at de shop until abt 6.
wen out 2 meet david n kien.
had dinner at mos burger.
saw kim cheong at LJS wif a grp of ppl.
played arcade n pool..
den at abt 10, we left.
another borin dae ._.

recieved baby's msg 2dae!
no wonder she neva msg me la..
de no. i haf been msging to had sum prob.
stupid.. lol.

miss u sooo.

2004-12-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

time seems 2 be passin by slowly.
as i stone,
im wonderin wad ure doin now.
sigh, how i wish i cud contact u.
juz 2 hear ur voice
coz i miss u.

tired.. played soccer wif de rest 2dae.
man, was it hot or wad..
but it was enjoyable though.
haven played soccer in a while as well.
came home, slpt n played ps2 all de wae.
sian. is dis how im gonna spend another 19 daes?
gotta find a job asap.
if not, i'll die.

uselessly me

2004-12-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

m i useless or wad.
she left dis mornin n i din send her off.
sigh..
but anw, there were reasons.
but still... sigh. sumone slap me pls

tt bitch again. mum's fren.
shes pissin me off.
2dae she took mi fone n looked at mi fone's pic gallery
no fukin respect 4 others at all.
din even apologiz.
sorry if i sound petty.
but dere were stuff inside n she pissed me off 2daes in a row.
tt bitch beta not come tmr.

2dae seemed so long.
time was juz tickin by.. slowly, tormentingly.
it has not even been a dae yet.
sigh.. wads gonna happen fer TWENT daes?
ohwell..
. .i miss u

weeeee..

2004-12-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

wad a dae.. woke up so early 2 look aft de shop.
fell aslp at de counter. read de pprs twice.. waitin 4 time 2 fly.
i even watched sesame street .. eh. its nice though.lol
yang n zac came over 2 mi place aft their private date. =P
den baby came over 2 mi place n brought lots of stuff. thx!
enjoyed de lagsane. =)
mum's fren is such a bitch i tell u.
let try her lagsane n she critisized?!
sayin tt de cheese baby used wasnt gd.
wtf la. abit direct rite. i hope u choke on ur own saliva i tell u.

anw, it was all a HUGE misunderstandin.
i m so sorry.
so wad u haf been doin is juz a lil test of urs ah?
juz wanna let u noe tt i do care.. k?

anw, thank u fer 2dae!

de fire hydrant exploded n u got wet.

veri sorry but thank u though. heh.

(erm tell u more in another form of communication too.)

je t'aime

de hamsters r makin noise.

sounds lyk dey screwin each other or sth.

but i dun even noe if dey r of de same sex.

ohwell. tired le. goodnight.

my first!

2004-12-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

thx alot baby! fer creatin dis blog fer me ya?
noe it was veri rush fer u but u still helped me. phon rat khun!
anw. dis is mi veri first entry! yay..
mmms. de reason y im bloggin, is coz sum1 wanna noe wads in mi head.
coz im mysterious n not open.. hmm. true though.
so yups.. here i m. lol.

anw, its 2:45am, juz came back frm granduncle's wake, lao peh juz kao peh me. but hu cares.
hmm. i wonder if shes slping soundly now.
is she havin tt nightmare again? or havin sum wet dream? hehe..
sigh. 9th is comin. so soon. *sobs*
its lyk de O levels. u dowan it 2 come so soon n u wan it 2 b gone quickly. ohwells.

2dae wasnt relly mi day.
talked 2 her abt sum stuffs.
it bothered me wen u lied abt de 17/10 blog entry.
its long gone n its nth much.
but still, y din u juz tell me de truth.
it eeeks me wen u lie abt things n keepin de truth frm me.
but other den tt,
things r de way it shud b.
im cant wait 2 c u tml.
1 last time b4 u leave. =)
je t'aime

2004-12-07T13:28:00.000+08:00

rights. this blog is horrendous looking.
but who cares.
its done by YOURS TRULY.
lols. neh. dunt complain.